Have you, my friend.

And have you my friend , ever felt so worthless and so dead. Have you ever felt like you could just crumble away like a land slide?  Like all that was left was a meer thought of you, but in their mind they could not picture you, could not hear you, they only knew that once  you were here, and now your laughter, your beauty, your presence.... is all gone?

Not only 'gone' but gone forever. that one person you loved the most, they and jesus had to compete for a part of your heart so big, it could only hold either or. That one person , would they miss you?would they miss you like you loved them, would they miss you like you wish they would?

Would you feel as if your life was well lived, and you had done all the things you always wanted, and all the right things at the right moment? Oh, but you're worthless, and dead. you never got far, you never broke through the easiest glass door to break. You didn't have the strength, nor the will, so now you're simply left to be ink on photograph paper, a name some one remembers, a laugh some one longs for to hear once again if only one last time, a soul some one wishes to embrace once again, and a face that few knew well, but many had once seen....

You're simply a memory. All that was you, is now gone. All that wasn't you has taken over. Your body has crumbled into the dirt like the rest of the lives spent here on our pitiful earth. But even if you never knew it, even if you never felt it, even IF you never tried, you made an impact on some ones life, they didnt know you, nor you them. but they think about you, every time they help some one,everytime they hear a laugh, every time they embrace their love, every time they see a resemblence on a strangers face, they question if that was you, but they know it wasn't. You know it wasn't. You no longer exist in this atmosphere, how could it possibly be you?


And so you're left to wonder.

Would you be satisfied if one day you just disappeared? Would you leave this place happily? because you knew that you were not worthless?

Wondering endlessly oddly

have you ever wondered if that blog you just found,that hasnt been updated in two years, may not be updated because....... they died? Sad, sad, i know. but i can't help but wonder.

Will i ever be lucky?

You know, I know I'm prettier than her. But then why did he choose her over me?shes older than him, has  a kid, or two, has been divorced..... i mean, im all kinds of better. I'm a virgin for fucks sake!! but you know what? that's what he like about her. she's probably easy, and sleezy. But i still like him...

But I'm moving on to better things, better people, hopefullly who like me back, like Cody..?
Fingers Crossed.

When I'm gone.

I've got my ticket for the long way 'round
Two bottle whiskey for the way
And I sure would like some sweet company
And I'm leaving tomorrow. What d'you say?
When I'm gone, when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my hair
You're gonna miss me everywhere, oh
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
I've got my ticket for the long way 'round
The one with the prettiest of views
It's got mountains, it's got rivers
It's got sights to give you shivers
But it sure would be prettier with you
When I'm gone, when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me by my walk
You're gonna miss me by my talk, oh
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone

One thing

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something
I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time
Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

Sad Thing is...

but the sad thing is , he'll never know what he actually let go of.



So some song lyics to go with~


Stay for tonight
If you want to
I can show you
What my dreams are made of,
as I'm dreaming of your face
I've been away for a long time
Such a long time
And I miss you there
I can't imagine being anywhere else
I can't imagine being anywhere else but here

Ever wonder why you couldnt be the movie star? the hot babe?

Well have you? have you ever wondered why you got the face and the body and the personality you did? why couldnt God have switched you bodies wuth some one else? well , I guess I wouldn't be the person I am today if he had, now would I?

I love you.

3words. 8letters. Say it, and I'm yours.

Have Faith In Me ~A Day To Remember

Have faith in me

Cause there are things that I've seen I don't believe

So cling to what you know and never let go

You should know things aren't always what they seem

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it

If you didn't have this chance then I never did

You'll always find me right there, again

I'm going crazy

Cause there are things in the streets I don't believe

So we'll pretend it's alright (pretend it's alright)

and stay in for the night

Oh what a world

I'll keep you safe here with me (with me)

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it

If you didn't have this chance then I never did

You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it

If you didn't have this chance then I never did

You'll always find me right there, again

They've got me on the outside, looking in

But I can't see at all

With the weight of the world on my shoulders,

They just wanna see me fall

They've got me on the outside, looking in

But I can't see at all

With the weight of the world on my shoulders,

They just wanna see me fall

Have faith in me

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it

If you didn't have this chance then I never did

You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did (Go, Did)

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it (Fall, Meant It)

If you didn't have this chance then I never did

You'll always find me right there, again

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

Adam, for reals??

I'm waiting on a friend to take her home in the break room, and a co-worker of mine comes up, im sketching an eye on cardboard and he said he wants to so i hand him the box, i hand him a pen, he drew this, and left it. He is so good at drawing!!! like, i saw it and said 'holy shit bro!' then he walked away. i cut it out of the box, because it was awesome.He will be famous one day.!! :)

Title? ha.

I work with this guy named Cody. and i really like him, i have no clue why, i mean he can be snappy and rude sometimes, but he's nice. and funny. But like.... it's weird im weird because i like REALLY like guys for their personality, he is proof. he has a great smile, and personanlity, and a cute face, but he;s a 'big boy' kk? he's not some fit mr.chunk. he's like a teddy bear. im attracted to big dude, what can i say? but... they have to have good personality and hygine, other wise it's just gross, you know? he has white teeth and he's friendlyand clean, doesnt stink. but he's 5 years older than i am... :/

Oh and i got a speeding ticket yesterday, on sunday, my first ever, first time even being pulled voer. it sucked. :(

Drawings.

Sad things you come across.

I was surfing through other blogs today and came across a family blog, i always enjoy those. well this poor woman and her husband had their sextuplets WEEKS early and 1 out of 6 survived. they have moved on, but still mourn. of course, who wouldnt? It's truly a very sad circumstance,i followed her blog, and please lord, bless her with anything she may ask for, give her elgance and poise when she needs it, assist her thorugh the rough patches that you've created,to better her, and to her husband, do the same please, and watchover their little blessings that are in the  big blue sky with you.
Amen.



And another blog that hasnt been active in 2 years, but he wrote his dreams...and frankly they were very odd, but he was brave enough to tell you them, cutos. !!

:)

It's a charmed life, innocence and wild,  crayola skies for a thousand miles. :) <3