I hope you dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.

I hope you dance....I hope you dance.

Head over feet

I had no choice but to hear you
You stated your case time and again
I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess
I'm not used to liking that
You ask how my day was

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole
You're so much braver than I gave you credit for
That's not lip service

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

You are the bearer of unconditional things
You held your breath and the door for me
Thanks for your patience

You're the best listener that I've ever met
You're my best friend
Best friend with benefits
What took me so long

I've never felt this healthy before
I've never wanted something rational
I am aware now
I am aware now

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it
It's all your fault

ACT practice

Doing practice tests for the ACT in an un-used office at my school. It sucks, i got a paper cut today, I'm pretty sure my best friends got me sick, and my stomach hurts from too much food. WHY? Why me..? why do i have to be sick and sleepy and injured and bored?

Awh yeah!

So, lastnight, I was texting a childhood friend, like we were besties, in fact, his cousin is my current bestie, me and him dated, then broke up after 4 years, well a few weeks ago he messaged me on  facebook saying we should talk, so i started texting him, and well, last night he told me the reason he messaged was because he has a crush on me! :3 i feel special... Because i still like him too.

Happy Holidays

Happy Thanksgiving to any one who's reading this! I hope you have a great time with your family and friends!

Write a book

I think I'm gonna write a book. or 2... lol. Haven't you ever just wanted to writes a book? for no apperant reason? lol. Or am I just an odd one like that....?

Closed at Work

I closed at my work for the first time ever...! It was pretty simple. i didn't mind it, in fact, i wasn't even tired lol... All i had to do was dishes, and scrub stuff lol. My manager is alot nicer when no one else is around to bug him . But all in all, it was a pretty good experience. Now i can close more often, i honestly worked for about 7 hours... i only made 23$ in tips though... -.- My fish are all still alive, and doing well. My 2 little girls are just fine. I still haven't been able to talk either of my friends into getting a betta.... -.- I just gotta keep working at it!!!!

Hair is my nemesis.

The number 1 thing i hate about long hair, is if you take a shower before bed, the back of your hair goes crazy and you wake up looking like a grease monkey and have no choice but to put it up. Fruck shizz. Gah. lol. make me angry, i guess ill have to start blow drying my hair every night.

oh and i watched Girl Interrupted today..... it was pretty damn good. I highly recommend it.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9... Gah

So you liked me? I already knew that, about both of you...
Moved away, coming back... Good to know... Will  I see you? nope.
And the friend... You kindly accepted my apology, however, we may be friends, but i don't feel more than that for you. I'm sorry...
But the other, on another hand.... something is there.... only slightly though...
oh and then there is the ass.... But i still kinda like him, he has most of my childhood. how could i not?
And then there is the 'ex' ... Why did you have to text me? I still like you, in fact want to tell you, but instead i tell a bunch of random creeps. but why? because Im afraid to hear what you say...
Then there is the acquaintance  he's cute, but shorter than me...it'd never work, other than beings friends. and then the other friend from a  foreign country? I like you, your flirty, but thats all thats between us. and then the best guy friend from school, yeah, I'm still crushing on you. Your nice to me, and you dont make fun of me... thanks for that. Then the dick that just wants my innocence, LOL,i used to like you, but now i dont. not anymore. and then there is the guy i used to like, then he moved, and stopped talking to me, after all i'd gone through with you? your mental issues? your rage and suicidal thoughts!?? I knew it was just for attention. Fuck you. Up the ass. With a cactus.

so how many was that!? lol.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 ? Hm.

I need more females in my life. Thank God for best friends.

School...

Some stuff is about to go down here at school.... And I'm going to tell the kid who is involved... And i feel awful because, I told a select few people about his private life, and now the teachers know (This however was not my fault) and I just feel bad for the kid.... It's private stuff! i mean like.... he wouldn't even show his best friend, and i invaded is privacy... And, Well, I'm telling him today. And telling him about the teacher... And my lord! The teacher could be a pervert! (doubt he is though) but he could be! and could be getting a kick from reading that stuff!!! I just don't know, its all a bad situation, and i stirred the pot. And i want to be the first one to tell him, because I caused it all. I feel awful about it.

Fucking drama.

Good day

Got my Bestfriend to create a blog, or try to, now all i have to do is get her to try a betta! lol.
90 veiws today.
fish are still living.
been a good day!

Jupiter

New girl today after 2 boys died, i felt awful about them dying, but when i went to walmart, i saw her, and she was there when i went to get Joan of Arc,i couldn't leaver her there again...  New girl, don't have a name for her yet, but she's just as small.I had 30$ in cash on me, and went in there with money and came out with 6 $ -.-  typical me.... i got her a 1.5 gallon tank, its pretty cool, it was 19.98 and she was 3.47 so, it worked out well. it  came with a filter, and a light, i had a heater already at home for her...... I was thinking about naming her Jupiter... for no apparent reason... lol, here are some pictures...

Hate these days...

I hate what the world has become... I hate how often 'Hate' is used, I dislike how often people threaten to kill Christians, simply because we are Christian, and don't worship the same God. I dislike the President of my country , I disown him because I am ashamed of him. I am ashamed of my generations humor, making fun of dying or dead people, laughing at people to the point that they commit suicide, and saddest part is no one cares when they die, that they were bullied, made fun of, not even teachers care these days. However 1 thing I am happy about, is my old friend started talking to me a while back, and we talk every day... I'm very happy about this because I missed them. I dislike the price of things, I dislike how every single product these days has corn in it, I dislike my lack of other things to dislike... Anyways..... I just simply am ashamed of my generation, and the world I live in.

I just want you to know, what ever religion you are, or aren't,  I don't hate you for it, in fact, I don't really care, its your life, do what you will with it, just don't push it onto me and hate me for disliking or not believing in it.

Joan of Arc

Got a new Betta today, she is a little baby, so much smaller than my others, i bought a few plant decorations for her tank too! Still no name though... I'm thinking Joan of Arc.... :) From the song 'She's so high above me' by Fastball. She's a little white/red Cambodian VT and she;s so cute, pray she makes it through the night, I'm gonna have to feed her flakes though because her mouth is not big enough for my pellets. I got home from walmart to find Sister in Sirs half of the ten gallon. I freaked out at first, because I couldn't find her, neither even has a tear  in their fins! so happy lol. Put her where she belongs, cleaned my old 2.5 tank, washed the gravel, rinsed the new plastic plants, and acclimated Joan of Arc. She's doing fine for now, although I'm worried about the filter gobbling her up, its only an air pump filter, but she is so tiny! I;m keeping a close eye on her for sure! Sorry for the awful picture quality, i used my phone....

Views!

So I just made this Blog today, and I've already had 63 views, 61 from America, 1 from Germany and 1 from Canada! So thanks to you guys. :) thanks to anyone else who views this! If you have a Gmail, please leave a comment! I hope you have have a betta fish. and if you don;t you should XD anyways..... Thanks for the views!

Watching scary shows

That moment when your at home watching scary haunting shows and you feel like your gonna get possessed and die. It's awful! (hence the Lords prayer and Apostles creed...) I  love haunting shows,  but they scare me so much. Do you ever think 'what if im the next one?' i do sometimes... gah its scary.... Anyways. I'trying to talk 1 of my friends into getting a Betta, actually 2 of them, because I feel like they'd match them and then eventually they'd love it, and thank me... but my best friend is not open to new things and the other friend just doesn't seem interested. Any Ideas!?


By the way, in case you were curious, you must have a Gmail to comment on this site :( sorry!!!

Apostles Creed and the Lords Prayer

I  Believe in God the Father Almighty, Maker of heaven and earth: And in Jesus Christ his only Son, our Lord; who was conceived by the Holy Ghost, born of the virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, dead, and buried; he descended into hell; the third day he rose again from the dead; he ascended into heaven, and sitteth on the right hand of God the Father Almighty; from thence he shall come to judge the quick and the dead.

I believe in the Holy Ghost; the holy catholic church; the communion of saints; the forgiveness of sins; the resurrection of the body; and the life everlasting. Amen

Our Father, who art in heaven
hallowed be thy Name, 
thy kingdom come, 
thy will be done, 
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those 
who trespass against us. 
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom, 
and the power, and the glory, 
for ever and ever. 

Angel of God, my guardian dear,
to whom God's love commits me here;
Watch over me throughout the night,
keep me safe within your sight
Amen.

A Poem 3

As the water currents take us for an unwanted ride
swirling and turning,but with the laws of water, we abide
as the swift breezes blow along the waters top ,rippling waves
We sit calmly awaiting the morning light ,and the vision we crave

at Night we do not dare leave our homes
we stay side by sides in our underground holes
but then dawn breaks the nights black waters
light shining through the waves
reflecting off the sand and into our caves

Awake we swim around, searching for food
in this unforgiving ocean, we can't stray too far
at the waters edge the bird perch and wait with eyes glued
at the top of the water, there's splashes to show where we are

Schools of small fish are not a rare sight
but we stay still, our reflections being our camouflage
blending in with the water trying not to be seen but the birds take flight
and our groups separate, we only want survival , for an unknown cause

as the day ends and the night washes over
those of us left, take refuge and cover
we have lived another day
in an unforgiving bay

but now its time to rest and sleep
so we can have energy and our lives to keep
a simple poem may sound so unfierce and pretty
but in the ocean, our lives are a pitty

A Poem 2

As night turns to dawn, fish scatter through the pond
Suddenly awaken by the light breaking through the muddy water
Barely hearing the birds chirp and waiting for a respond

We see turtles heads pop up and swim
Little minnows come and go at the slightest movement
In the distance we see a splash and a great big fin

Dragon flies Zoom, and fall
Twitching in the water but not for long
For there are little hungary mouths to await them all

As Perch swim in their egg beds, barely visible
We catch glimpses of fish swimming through being chased off by busy mothers
But as the evening comes, and dusk falls, the pond starts to turn invisible

All the fish go to rest
all the mothers protect their nest
We watch as the sun falls
and the birds start their evening calls

The life of the pond, lasts so long
even at night with stars in the sky
fish are busy catching flies
and we hear the splashes, The song of the pond

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A Poem

All blue, sunlight breaking through the waves
As they break on the shore, washing fish onto the sand
The Dolphins and Whales singing like an Ocean band
All the movement and chaos scares small fish into caves

At low tide we are limited to our choices
Chasing the smallest fish, until they disappear into holes
Chasing them until they are only souls
If you listen close you can hear all the oceans different voices

Echos and whispers come and go
 Splashes on the evening shoals
All the sounds combine into one
The quiet and peaceful ocean Hum 

At evening we all sleep
We go to our homes in the oceans deep
No movement no noise
Just peaceful waves with grace and poise

Aqua

This is Aqua, he's my most recent impulse buy.... although i bought him a while back!

Betta's Are a Life Style.

Not even entirely sure what a blog is, but mine is dedicated to my fish, family, friends and life. First post... Uhm I guess I'll start with: Don't expect many, unless I remember for some weird reason to blog. I really enjoy my fish, I have 5 betta's, the pride and joys in my life other than my 2 dogs of course. I know you must be thinking 'how can a fish be a pride and joy!?' well, it started about a year ago when I got some extra cash from a relative, now my favorite spot in Wal-Mart has always been the fish isle, but this time I went to the little fish in the cups, I saw these little poor fellas in nasty cups, i was repulsed! I knew nothing of these fish but I was determined to get one, I picked up the cleanest healthiest fish of them all, I walked down the isle and got everything with a picture of a betta, and some other things that seemed like they'd be important. My mom covered the cash I didn't have, I got home,stuck him in a vase, with rocks and nothing else, which I now know is horribly wrong! Well, eventually while garage selling  I got a 10 gallon, with a hood, heater, filter, etc. I filled it up, dechlorinater in the water, and put Mister in it.Well, he lived a couple of months while I continued with my new addiction, and tried to get as many as possible, I had up to 10 at one point, but obviously all but 2 died, I then decided to research, and thats when I found this wonderful site called www.BettaFish.com... I made an account, -MistersMom- and began learning things I never even considered. Well, I now have 5 loves that I care for, and love, they each have their own special little personality and attitude. Aqua, Bello, Sir, Sister,and Odysseus. I have a 20 gallon and 10 gallon, each divided to fit them. If you have the time and the space for a Betta in your life,  I highly suggest you to get one, after research and buying the proper things, they make wonderful pets, and family members and each one is different. Welp, that's all for today I guess......