What.....the hell?

And i can't change,even if i tried. Even if i wanted to. My love, my love, my love, he keeps me warm. he keeps me warm...


any ways, time for some deep thought.


As you walk that lonely road, as you walk with no one at your side, you are alone. in the dark you can't speak, can't listen. you walk blindly into nothing. Your love has let you do this, the moment you said yes, they took advantage. love is blind, love is beautiful,but love is ugly. You blindly walk down this road alone, they keep there distance,  letting hte evil spirits take you, and grab you, shred you to peices, as they watch in the shadows.



nah. I'm not sure what that one was about but how about this one.



As you watch from the other side of the room, you wonder. Do they know you exist? Do they know you love them, even though you've never met them? but you have faith that one day you'll be wanted, by that one person and they'll love you with all their heart and you'll feel as if you are needed every second of every day and you can never be apart, but eventually the feeling goes away and you catch them with their significant other, and you are caught in a love trianlge and they say they'll never do it again, but can you trust them now? can you beleive the words coming from your lovers soft lips, the lips you've once kissed, and the eyes you used to fall head over heals for, and those hands you have felt time and time again, and can you trust them the way you used to? they moved their hands, they cover their chin, their mouth, you watch, as they nervously apologize, but if you meant that much to them,would this have ever happened? What kind of promises will they make now? can you look into those eyes the same way, can you love their body like you used to, knowing they have been unfaithful. and can you forgive them for their trespass against you?  No. You tell htem to leave,to get out, your hurt your in pain, your eyes start to tear and they drop like little raind drops, your vision clouds, you fucking unfaithful human being, get the fucking hell out of my fucking home, you don't deserve me, you scream so loud you scare yourself, and they get scared as well, you stop, and stare into their beautiful frightened eyes, as they look at you confused, get the fuck out! you say once more, and they turn around, you can finally catch your breath, you love them, but its over, this will all end soon. You go into your bathroom , open the vanity, and remove the valium. As you take a months worth of valium, you hear your lovers car leave the drive, and you whisper once more thatyou love them, then you sleep, a deep dark sleep you'll never see the light of the sun again, and your gone, your body left to be found by your lover the next day as they return to gather their belongings, and you are left in the deep dark abyss of nithingness after death, as you try to find the lights to heaven, and your lover lays their head upon your dead shoulder and begins to cry, as they notice thelittle note grapsed in your hand, and they read the words i love you, and then lie next to you, an empty pill bottle on the nightstand, and one more life taken, the bodies lie together, under the covers, cold and stiff, and each died with a tear on their cheek.